My Single Life - Blog

I think Dan is sick of me asking him what his mum thought of me! It's only natural to worry about what your partner's parents think of you. Dan is yet to meet mine. He said his mum thought I was very charming, "a lovely quiet girl" were her exact words. That sounds good, but I still worry about how she feels. I only actually saw her for a short time, so it's hard to make a judgement about someone in such a short time, but I'm happy with her opinion so far. I never did hear from the guy online, that's fair enough. It's been a relatively quiet week for me so far, I'm getting plenty of rest before all the christmas parties start. I've been thinking about what to get Dan for christmas, I have no idea at the moment. I'm still learning things about him, so I'm still finding out about what he likes. At least I have a few more weeks to think.

I saw Dan again this weekend. I went to his place and we watched some telly then a DVD and enjoyed a huge takeaway. In the middle of it, is door knocked and it was his mum! She had just popped by to drop something off, so it wasn't planned, well so he said anyway. I didn't think I'd be meeting family just yet, maybe in a few weeks or so, but I couldn't really hide from her. I think she was as suprised as I was. She only stayed for a little while, but in that time she came across as being so lovely. I hope she liked me too. I honestly liked her, she seemed such a gentle person and quite timid. I have always worried about what my partner's parents have thought about me. I'm kind of glad I have met her already, so that is one less thing to think about. I shall have to wait and see if she mentions anything to Dan about me. I still haven't had a response from the guy on the website about cancelling our meeting. I guess I'm not going to hear anything from him now. I can't believe tomorrow is December. I'd better get my advent calendar out ready for the morning!

I finally plucked up the courage to tell the guy on the website about Dan. I thought it was best to be honest with him. I told him at the beginning of the week and I haven't heard back from him since. I guess that is fair enough; I don't know what I expected him to say anyway. For all I know he sends messages to loads of other people. I hope that's the case anyway, I'd hate to think I have really let him down. It's impossible to know how someone will react to a message letting them down, I guess it takes a lot for someone to say not to worry about it. I'm just glad I never actually met him, that would have been a lot harder. One of my colleagues in work, who is a difficult person, was really weird with me when I was talking about the situation. She said I led him on and wasn't fair on him. She really got to me I hate to say. I felt bad about it, and maybe I shouldn't have arranged to meet him, but I didn't know how things were going to work out with Dan. I feel I have done the right thing by telling him the truth and that is all I can do.

I am amazed at how quickly the weekend went. I guess it's true that time flies when you're having fun. I saw Dan saturday night which was great. He took me out for dinner at my favourite Thai restaurant which was delicious. I think I may have overdressed a little, but I felt great so I didn't care. Dan looked great too, I think my feeling for him grow each time I see him. We were in the restaurant for four hours! It didn't feel like we were there that long, we just kept talking and talking. I had a fantastic time. I couldn't believe how cold it was when we left the restaurant, no wonder there was snow on the ground yesterday morning. I love the snow, but only when I don't have to go out in it, apart from building a snowman. There wasn't enough to build a snowman which was a shame, plus it didn't last long. On my date I ended up telling Dan about being on the website and the guy I said I would meet. I think I took Dan by suprise, but he was ok about it. I got the impression he didn't want me to meet the other guy, which is fair enough as it wouldn't be fair on Dan. I did tell Dan I wasn't going to meet the other guy, but I just didn't know how to tell him. I'd better send him a message and let the other guy know before it goes any further.

What a busy few days I have had at work, I'm so glad it's the weekend now. I am meeting my man this weekend, which I am really looking forward to. I think it's about time I gave him a name instead of just calling him my man; his name is Dan. I can't stop thinking about Dan, although deep down I am petrified of getting hurt. I also feel guilty about saying yes to meeting the guy from the website. I have still been sending him messages, but nothing more than telling him how my day has been. I really feel guilty, especially because things are going so well with Dan. I might cancel meeting him and tell him all about Dan, otherwise it's not fair on either of the guys. Maybe I should have stuck to my original plan and concentrated on one guy at a time. Anyway, I'm off to plan my outfit for my date tomorrow. Dan is taking me out for a Thai meal, so it will be nice to dress up a little. Dan has only ever seen me in a fancy dress costume and my jeans. I must remember to record the X-Factor and I'm a Celebrity Get Me Out of Here....sad I know!

Where shall I start? Well, I had a brilliant time on my shopping date. The day just flew by! He was a little late picking me up and for a few minutes I thought I'd been stood up, maybe I shouldn't have jumped to that conclusion so quickly. He said he had to get petrol and there was a bit of a queue at the petrol station, so he had a valid reason. We had such a laugh walking round the shops, it felt like I'd known him for years. We seemed to spend a long time in the shops but I didn't come home with many christmas presents for my family and friends. I did manage to buy myself a few presents though! We had lunch in a cosy coffee shop which was surprisingly quite busy. My guy insisted on buying me lunch, which made me feel special. I was shattered by the time he dropped me home. I invited him in for a coffee, and I really did mean just a coffee, but he said he had to prepare for an early meeting in work. I hope he did have work to do and it wasn't just an excuse not to come in. I feel like the date went really well and I think he did too. He sent me a text late last night saying thank you for a wonderful day, and he sent me a lovely message first thing today which has put a smile on my face all day!

I am really excited about my date tomorrow, well most of me is excited but a little part of me is nervous. I have been trying on loads of my casual but smart outfits suitable for shopping. I think I will stick to my comfortable shoes though! I can't believe the date is tomorrow. He is picking me up at 9.30am so we can get started with the shopping. I'm glad he is driving and not me. I do like driving, but I'll only worry about stalling or something if he is with me. Earlier I was chatting to the guy on the website. He said he was ill over the weekend which is why I didn't hear from him much. He mentioned meeting up again, so we have arranged to meet up in a few weeks time. As soon as we arranged it I started to regret it. I can't believe I have arranged a date with someone else when I haven't even been on this date yet. Maybe I should have waited until I see how the date tomorrow goes first. Last time I arranged to meet someone I put everyone else on hold, which is something I said I wouldn't do again, but it doesn't feel right.

It's only a few days now until my christmas shopping date. I keep going over everything that can go wrong! At least I don't have to worry about recognising him from a photo because I have already met him, so that's one less thing to panic about. I am looking forward to the date, but I'm scared it will be a disaster. We had originally planned to go shopping tuesday afternoon, but we are now spending the whole day shopping and going to shops a little further afield. I'm trying to think positively about the date. I really really like this guy and I want everything to go smoothly. At least the shops are indoors, so it doesn't matter about the weather. My christmas shopping list is getting longer and longer! I'm having a saturday night in tonight for once. I'm looking forward to catching up with Strictly Come Dancing and the X-Factor!

What a miserable wet and windy weekend it was. I got soaked at the fireworks saturday night. I had two pairs of socks on, but my feet were still freezing. The fireworks were really good and there was lots of food and drink, including some lovely cakes! I had planned on going out after the fireworks but I was so cold that I just stayed in and watched the X-Factor. I haven't really sent many messages to the guy I like on the website the last few days and I haven't had many back from him. I hope we are both just having a little rest and he isn't bored of me already! I just haven't been in the mood for writing lots of messages for some reason....I blame the gloomy weather! I did speak to the guy from the Halloween party last night though. He has taken next tuesday off work so we can go christmas shopping. I'm looking forward to that....I just hope my boss lets me have the day off work too. She wasn't in work today so I couldn't ask her. I'd better get a shopping list prepared.

I spent a lot of last night talking on the phone to the guy I met at the Halloween party. I can't believe I spent about 3 hours on the phone! We have finally arranged a date. He has asked if I want to go christmas shopping with him. I said yes as I thought it would be fun, plus having a task may put less pressure on us for a first date. I have lots of christmas shopping to do myself, so if the date doesn't work out then at least I will have got some of my presents bought! I hope is isn't only after someone to help buy his mum and sister's presents! Oh well, I'm looking forward to it anyway. We are both going to take an afternoon off work not this week, but next, either tuesday or thursday. He is going to let me know which day, as he has to sort a few bits out in work on monday first. I've never been on a shopping date before. I'm hoping it will be quite relaxed, unless everyone decides to go christmas shopping that day! I'm off to get ready to go to a firework display now.