All week I've had Sunday night going over and over in my head. I still can't believe I felt that unsafe in a local, usually quiet, bar. I have been talking to my friends about it and they said they didn't feel safe either. I just keep thinking about what could have happened, possibly nothing, but there was something about those blokes I didn't like. I don't know whether to tell Dan about the evening. I have nothing to hide, but I don't know whether he will get all protective, or even jealous. I don't want to worry him, he needs to concentrate on getting better. If I don't tell him, then I'm sure it will pop up in future conversation and he will wonder why I didn't tell him. I'm starting to wish I had gone round to see him Sunday night instead of going out with my friends. I'm seeing Dan tonight, so I'll probably tell him all about it, think I need to get it off my chest too. Dan isn't feeling up to much, so I am taking a Chinese takeaway round to his place, which I'm really looking forward too.
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At last Dan is finally getting better. I saw him last night and he looked so sweet. He is over the worst part but he still sounds bad. I've never had the flu and from what he has told me, I don't want it! I felt awful going out with my friends on sunday knowing he was ill in bed and to make matters worse there was a group of blokes at the bar we went to who wouldn't leave my friends and I alone. They tried to chat us all up, but there were only a few in our group who are single and were interested. I found it hard to make it clear I wasn't interested without being rude. The guy who kept talking to me was very touchy-feely and I didn't like that at all. I moved away from him and even made the excuse of going to the toilets, but he didn't seem to get the hint. It kind of spoilt the evening, for me anyway. He didn't over step the mark or anything, but I just felt uncomfortable. In the end I told him I had a boyfriend, but that didn't seem to make any difference. I couldn't work out if this guy was just having innocent fun, or if he was really trying to come on to me, which is how it came across to me. I wanted to leave, but didn't want to leave on my own; I felt that uncomfortable. In the end four of us had had enough of the blokes overstaying their welcome, plus they started to get a bit roudy, so we decided to leave together. It sounds pathetic, but we made a run for it when some of the blokes went to the bar to get more drinks. The rest of our group left shortly after us. Relieved to be home I started to get angry about how the evening ended. I shouldn't have let those guys ruin my evening, but I honestly didn't feel safe and they always say you should always trust your instincts.
Valentines Day didn't exactly go as I'd hoped. When I saw Dan on Thursday he said he wasn't feeling all that good. He did sound a little congested and he said he felt weak, but he wasn't too bad. Friday night when I spoke to him he sounded awful! He could barely talk and he wasn't making much sense. He said he had the flu and he really did sound like it. He hadn't even made it out of bed! There was no way he was going to be well enough to do anything on Valentines Day. I was a little disappointed, but more concerned about Dan getting better. I was all for going to be with him, but he said he was just sleeping all the time and didn't want me to catch it from him. I had a nice quiet saturday night in instead. We will do our Valentines Day another time instead. Tonight I am going out for a friend's birthday. A group of us are just going for a quiet drink. I feel a little guilty going out while Dan is stuck at home not feeling well though. I guess I'd only be sitting indoors otherwise. Hopefully Dan will start to feel better soon.
It's been a quiet week for me so far. The weather has been miserable which hasn't helped. I got absolutely soaked on Monday going to work. The one day I forgot my umbrella and it pours down, typical! I've not seen Dan since the weekend, so I'm looking forward to seeing him, hopefully tomorrow night. I mentioned Valentines Day to him at the weekend but didn't have much luck finding out if he is planning anything. I don't think we will be going to a restaurant though; he doesn't want to pay for a special Valentines 'overpriced' menu, which is fair enough I guess. So I'm still not sure what we are doing, he just said leave it with him, so that's exactly what I am doing.
It's only a week until Valentines Day and I'm not sure what Dan and I are doing. He hasn't even mentioned it to me, so I'm not sure whether he has remembered. I know it's still a week away, but restaurants and other places get fully booked on Valentines Day and as it's on a Saturday this year it could be even harder to find somewhere not fully booked. I thought about booking somewhere but for all I know Dan has planned something as a suprise. I don't want to spoil his plans by asking him, but then again if he hasn't planned anything then I could do something. I'm not one for wanting the works on Valentines, but I like to receive a card from by bloke at least. I am making a card for him this week; I just need to think of something to get him. I am terrible thinking of gifts for a man, I never know what a girl is meant to get a man for Valentines Day. Most gifts I've seen in the shops are more aimed at women. I'll have to have a good think. I'm seeing Dan later on, so I shall see if he mentions Valentines Day.
It's been a great few days! I love the snow, but only if I don't have to go anywhere. I was lucky that my work was closed for a few days so I didn't have to attempt to get to work. I'm sure we will be made to take it as holiday though! Anyway, at least I've had a few days off. Yesterday Dan walked all the way to my house as he couldn't get to work. He looked frozen by the time he got to me, plus he had a bright red nose! We acted like big kids, like a lot of people do in the snow. We went outside and built a snowman, well a kind of snowman, it wasn't that great but was lots of fun. Dan being a typical bloke thought it would be funny to fire snowballs in my direction!! So obviously that started a huge snowball fight! He managed to get me right in the face which really hurt, but I got him back by throwing a snowball right where it hurts him!!! (not on purpose though!) I forgot how wet snowball fights get you, I haven't had one in years. I hope work is shut again tomorrow, but I doubt it. I shouldn't complain really, I've had a few extra days off which have been really fun, cold but fun.
I am really looking forward to my weekend away with Dan. I haven't managed to get any clues from him about where we are going though. All I know is that he is picking me up at 6.30am tomorrow. As usual I have over packed. I'll only be away for three nights and I've packed enough for a week. At least Dan's car is a reasonable size so my bag will fit. Dan is coming round in about 15 minutes for a take away, so maybe I'll quiz him some more. The girls in work have been coming up with suggestions of where we could be going all week, but I think some of the ideas are a bit crazy. I was worried they would get my hopes up, but I've managed to stay sensible and look forward to just being away. I really don't mind where we go, I will enjoy the suprise and enjoy spending more time with Dan. I guess I will learn some things about him this weekend, it will be the longest time I have ever spent with him. I'd better finish my packing, although I don't think I'll fit anything else in my bag!
I'm really excited this week; Dan is taking me away for the weekend and I have no idea where. I know it's in this country as he hasn't said I need my passport. I don't really care where we go, it's just nice to get away. I've never had a guy arrange a weekend away for me, it feels really exciting. I'm prepared for the weather not to be that great, but I don't mind. I will try and get some clues from him later about where we are going. All I know is that he is picking me up Friday morning and we won't be back until late Monday. It's a short week for me in work this week which is a bonus, only two more work days until the weekend for me. I'm just about talking to that annoying woman in work. I think I shocked her last week by being so aggressive, oh well, at least she knows I'm not standing for her pathetic comments any more. I wish I had been so blunt with her before now instead of years of putting up with it. I still can't believe it's coming to the end of January already. Christmas seems like yesterday to me still!
It's been a better week in work luckily. The new year rush seems to be passing at last so work was much quieter. I saw Dan tuesday night and we had a proper talk about our argument last weekend. Things are fine between us again thank goodness. I'm seeing him again later; he is taking me out for dinner which I'm looking forward to. I got really annoyed with a woman at work. She is the one who is negative about everything I do, she is always moaning. Anyway, today I just happened to mention about receiving the message the other day from the guy who didn't reply to my messages months ago. I just said I didn't know whether to reply saying I had met someone; then she just started causing trouble asking why I'm on the site if I'd met someone and I'm not being fair to others. I didn't mean to, but I ended up being quite agressive back which is so unlike me. I told her I have nothing to lose being on the website and it doesn't cost me anything, plus I have made a few great friends who I regulary chat to. I think some people just like to moan for the sake of it. Now I've got that off my chest I can concentrate on deciding what to wear for my meal tonight. I'd better hurry, Dan will be here in 20 minutes.
I'd like to say I had a brilliant weekend, but it wasn't. It was a bit of a weird one actually. Dan and I had our first propper argument. Why do arguments happen over the silliest things? I won't go into the exact details, but it was basically a misunderstanding and neither of us were willing to give in, childish I know. I think my bad week at work got to me and I know Dan had a horrible week at work too. We didn't talk to each other for over a day. I hate feeling like that, but I was also too angry to make the first move. I did finally get over it and decide to phone Dan last night, but he got there first. He phoned to say sorry, and we sorted things out. I apologised too as I know it was partly my fault. I haven't seen him since though, we are seeing each other tomorrow after work. It felt strange being angry at him. I hope things are ok between us now. I spoke to him a little while ago and things seemed normal, but I'll be happier when I've seen him in person.
